Monday Ponderings

I just thought I'd recap the last week. It ended up being a pretty busy week.

Monday, I just went to work like usual. Nothing special happened.

Tuesday, Joshua had his last soccer game of the season. The kids had a pretty good time even though they lost the game. The coach gave them their medals and they each got a goodie bag. It was a great way to end the season. Afterwards, we decided to go to the drive in to celebrate Joe's birthday. We saw "Land of the Lost" and "Night at the Museum-Part II". It was pretty fun going to the drive in. We had to deal with the rain a little bit but overall it turned out fine.

Wednesday, I had the day off. Joe turned 35 today (6/17). I slept in for a while due to being out late the night before. We went to Tequila Willy's for lunch around 4 pm. That was pretty fun. Megan spent the night. I made Joe a cake for his birthday so we had cake and ice-cream. It was an odd day. We didn't have a whole lot of money to do much else so that is about all we did.

Thursday, Joe had an interview in the morning. He got home around noon. Then, we went to Richmond Park with the kids for a few but it wasn't that fun. We then headed to his parents house for a little bit but then I had to take Joe to work for the World Mission from 3-7 pm. I was going to visit my Aunt Ginger but no one was home so the kids and I headed back home. I made them mac & cheese for a late lunch and I ate the left over burrito from Wed. I called my Aunt Ginger and she was home so we went to visit her from 3-6:30 pm. Then, I went to get gas and then we picked Joe up. Afterwards, we took the kids to CEC for a little bit but then headed home. I can't remember if we did anything else. Something tells me we went to Meijer. Mikayla spent the night at Mary's house on Thursday.

Friday, I worked like usual. After work, I went to Bio. I got $30, which was cool. Then, I went to pick Mikayla up at Mary's house. Then, we came home to begin our family fun night. We had spaghetti for dinner. We watched a movie, "Meet the Fockers". It was a laid back evening. I think I went to bed around 11:30 pm.

Saturday, I had to work from 7-3:45 pm. After work, we went to Richmond Park for a Father's Day picnic. It was pretty fun to get together with the family. My grandparents, Aunts Sharon, SanDee and Wendy, cousins, Nate, Lonna, Laura, Stacie, Bill were there in addition to Amy and Ed. It was a potluck picnic. The kids played pretty well together. Afterwards, I took Joe to his friend's house for a party. The kids and I went to the Walker Festival. The kids really had a great time there. After the festival, we went to Marie's house and watched the fireworks and had s'mores. I think we left her house around 10:30 or 11:30 pm, I can't remember. I had to go to sleep right away since I had to work on Sunday.

Sunday, I worked from 7-3:45 pm. Work went okay. I was in one of my off moods. I was pretty upset about Natalie. The day before, Amy told me she was mad at me so that just really upset me badly. I got home from work to take a bit of a nap and then dropped Joe and the kids off to his parent's house while I went to Red Lobster to meet up with my Dad, Amy, Ed, girls and Natalie. The meeting didn't go so well. I was so hurt and upset that I just had a very difficult time meeting with Natalie there. I couldn't look at her and I just felt really uncomfortable based on how she treats me and basically ignores me. I kept getting up so fend off my hurt and tears. Finally, I just decided it was best to leave. So, I went out to my car and called my dad to explain what was going on. The tears just started rolling down my cheeks. I really couldn't handle it. It was horrible. So, when my dad got there, I just told him "Happy Father's Day" and then hugged him and left. Then, I called my Aunt SanDee to talk to her. She comforted me and basically told me to go back in there because it was my dad too and not to let Natalie ruin it for me. So, I went back into the restaurant. I tried to be in better spirits but it was still very tense. Natalie is just not a nice person. She is very self-centered, selfish and a spoiled brat! I tried to act like nothing happened. When it was time to leave, I took a couple of pictures and she hugged me and said bye. It was very short and sweet. She didn't even say anything else to me. However, she told Amy that what I did makes her pull away further. Oh fricken well. I am so sick of her acting like she's all that and life revolves around her. I'd love to just have a face to face meeting with her and just tell her exactly how I feel. She really needs to grow up. I admit, I made an ass out of myself but I was hurt. I wish I never would have known that she was mad at me. I wish things were better. I wish I could see my dad more often. I really crave a close relationship but it's just not there. After the restaurant, I went to Joe's parents to pick him and the kids up so we could come home.

Monday, I woke up this morning but didn't feel right. I was so emotionally drained that I just couldn't go to work today. I spent the whole day basically sleeping and in bed. I never even went outside today. I really hope the rest of the week goes better.

Tuesday, I have to work.

Natalie is here until Thursday. I highly doubt I will see her for the rest of her time here. I really don't care if I do or don't. She doesn't like my kids and it's obvious that she doesn't care for me either. I hope she enjoys spending time with her friends. I think she is going to spend time with my dad on Wed.

Anyway, that's about it. It was an exhausting week last week. I'll have to try and write more this week. Mikayla's birthday is on Saturday. I am planning to have the family birthday party for her at Richmond Park. Well, that's about it for now.